Back from Holiday (:

Just got back after a very long traffic jam on the motorway. Someone had an accident, hope they're all okay!

Had lunch up my nannies and she seemed a little sad. I think it's because my evil uncle is after her money again. He is literally such a dick. Ugh.

Anyway,  my baby girl is coming to see me for the weekend today! Eeeeeeeeeeek! So so so excited! I can't believe it's come around so fast. I'm so glad though, I feel literally lost without her.

So she'll be arriving around 6/7-ish and my mum is taking us out for dinner. I am a little bit worried about how mum will be around us. I mean, she's already be convinced by her 'friend' that we can't sleep in the same room, so I don't know how it's going to go. I'm just happy to be seeing her again, I miss her so much and I really can't wait to be with her.

Probably gained loads of weight on holiday, I did it a load of rubbish! Oh well. Hahahaa. Mum wants me to go on a diet now :|. GREAT.

Totally excited to start listening to 'Bon Iver's' new album though!! I love his music. It's so beautiful. I'm listening now, to 'Calgary'. It's gorgeous. Favourite already. <3 The video is weird though, gotta admit, but I do like it.

Too-da-loo.

Going Away Tomorrow (:

Just a quick post to say I'm off for the week.
Not really looking forward to it that much, but hopefully, it'll be okay.
Then I get to see my girl! So excited about that! :D

I love you baby,
Always,




Bee.

I miss my Girl.

Just come here now? I need your cold hands in mine.
I miss the way she looks at me when I've done something stupid, it's just one of those "you are so adorable" looks and it makes my heart melt every time.
I miss her voice, her smile, the cute little dimples on her back and just everything about her.
You make me so happy and I feel like I can't function properly without you.
I think about you every second of everyday and I need you so much.
I love you baby,
Always,




Bee.

Favourite Song Right Now.

The A Team - Ed Sheeran

The video is hard hitting, I think. And the lyrics, just woah.

"White lips, pale face

Breathing in snowflakes

Burnt lungs, sour taste

Light's gone, day's end

Struggling to pay rent

Long nights, strange men

And they say

She's in the Class A Team

Stuck in her daydream

Been this way since 18

But lately her face seems

Slowly sinking, wasting

Crumbling like pastries

And they scream

The worst things in life come free to us

Cos we're just under the upperhand

And go mad for a couple of grams

And she don't want to go outside tonight

And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland

Or sells love to another man

It's too cold outside

For angels to fly

Angels to fly

Ripped gloves, raincoat

Tried to swim and stay afloat

Dry house, wet clothes

Loose change, bank notes

Weary-eyed, dry throat

Call girl, no phone

And they say

She's in the Class A Team

Stuck in her daydream

Been this way since 18

But lately her face seems

Slowly sinking, wasting

Crumbling like pastries

And they scream

The worst things in life come free to us

Cos we're just under the upperhand

And go mad for a couple of grams

But she don't want to go outside tonight

And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland

Or sells love to another man

It's too cold outside

For angels to fly

An angel will die

Covered in white

Closed eye

And hoping for a better life

This time, we'll fade out tonight

Straight down the line

And they say

She's in the Class A Team

Stuck in her daydream

Been this way since 18

But lately her face seems

Slowly sinking, wasting

Crumbling like pastries

They scream

The worst things in life come free to us

And we're all under the upperhand

Go mad for a couple of grams

And we don't want to go outside tonight

And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland

Or sell love to another man

It's too cold outside

For angels to fly

Angels to fly

To fly, fly

Angels to fly, to fly, to fly

Angels to die"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UAWcs5H-qgQ

That's the video, watch it.

8:30 am Shopping Spree round Tesco's

Got some milk, a "Kerrang" magazine and of course, a Starbar <3

Now I think I'm going to do some drawing an stuff for the rest of the day and talk to my beautiful girlfriend as much as possibly. Baby, I miss you so much.

Always, 

Bee.

Tuesday, 12th July 2011

Had a great day out with my Dad today. I felt a bit like he was avoiding me though, I still feel awkward with him from everything that's happened, but I'm hoping it will get better. He doesn't want to seem to touch me, like usually, he'd be hugging me all the time, but not today. He seemed distant. :( There's not much I can do though, so I'm just going to have to live with it.

Anyway, here's what I bought in the AMERICAN CANDY STORE!:

YUM.

Then I spent the rest of my day back at my Dad and Sarah's house. Had a lovely time seeing Kelly and Karl and took some pictures, which is always nice. (:

This is Kelly (:

And this is Karl (:

I love them both very much, they're absolute angels... most of the time. But yeah, they're my half sister and half brother (: 

List Writing Time (:

A bit of planning for what I'm going to be doing in the next few months I thinks...

1. Trip to Swanage with the Fam - Should be good fun times spending some quality time with mi madre y mi hermana and time for drawing, reflection etc.
2. On the 22nd July, Indie, my girl, is coming down to see me - looking forward to that the most out of my whole summer! My mum actually agreed to let her stay with me! So, majorly excited :D
3. Going to Madrid for two weeks for a Catholic "WYD". If I'm honest, I'm not really looking forward to that. Not that I don't have a spirituality, I'm just not sure of it right now, I need time, maybe I'll never figure it out, but I want to at least have a chance to make my own decisions about it.
4. Greenbelt Festival with my bestfriend, Tash. We're having some difficult times right now, mainly trust issues and I don't know where we are, but even though we're both hurt, I don't want to lose her. Should be great fun going away with her and enjoying the music and the shows. Really excited about the freedom it should give me too.
5. College Interview! Final meeting before September and I'm super excited about starting there. I cannot believe how much time I wasted at my last school and I'm just SO glad for the opportunity to go there. The interview will be like confirming everything, like GCSE results for everyone else,  but for me, just discussing my course and other stuff because I've already done my GCSE's like,  almost two years ago now! So, yeah.
6. Then, on the 1st September, hopefully my girl will be visiting again just before I go back to college so we can talk about our future and just be together, and enjoy each others company, I don't want much else right now.
7. Starting college, 9th September, cannot wait to just get stuck into the course and back into my little world of art.
8. Christmas! I definitely want to spend this Christmas with my girl, just playing in the snow (hopefully!), relaxing, kissing under mistletoe, watching crappy Tv and just being in each others company. I am incredibly excited for this. 

So, that's my list for now, it may change/be updated through the rest of the year. But that's what I'm hoping for.

Always, 

Bee